He Has You Hidden for a Purpose - You Are His Secret Weapon!"

Victoria Boyson:
"He Has You Hidden for a Purpose - You Are His Secret Weapon!"
"My frame was not hidden from You when I was made in the secret place." Psalm 139:15

At the Verge of Breakthrough
Have you ever felt forgotten by God? Do you feel invisible? Does God seem to be blessing everyone except you? Do your expectations of God seem to meet with cold indifference from Him?
If your answer is "yes," then rejoice, because you are at the edge of a miracle! You are on the verge of a breakthrough! The door to your destiny is about to swing open!
The most difficult time of any birth is the few moments right before you deliver your baby into the world. You are exhausted beyond what you can even endure...you cannot stand it anymore. You have pushed and pushed and have exhausted all your strength. You want to scream, "I can't do this...I can't!" BUT you must! It is at this moment that you must push the hardest and exert yourself the most. You are crying, "I can't," and everyone around you is yelling, "PUSH!"
Then, somewhere deep inside you, strength arises! You have a determination now, where a hopeless feeling used to dwell. Now you cry from the depths of your heart, "I can," and "I will!"
You are at the verge of a breakthrough and perhaps you are tired of believing, but only you can break through to your miracle. Only you can give birth to your destiny! Only you can fight through to your dream's fulfillment. Your God will give you His strength when you have none of your own. When you fall short, He will pick you up because, "He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak" (Isaiah 40:29).

Hidden Miracles and Butterflies

I have felt this way - I have felt forgotten by God. I wondered if the promise would ever be fulfilled - if God would ever open the door. I had been teetering on the edge of a breakthrough for so long that I began to doubt. "Would it ever really happen? Maybe God has changed His mind?" I was tired of waiting, of praying, of hoping in faith! I felt like a butterfly in a cocoon, hidden and forgotten. During that time I wrote his poem:

Someday, I'll Fly...
I've not been myself lately or for some time for that matter. I'm not sure who "myself" is anymore.I feel like a caterpillar inside the cocoon. I'm neither a butterfly nor a caterpillar anymore.I'm not what I used to be nor am I what I'm going to be.I cannot go back to what I was,or what was familiar to me. I can't rush forward and be what I have not yet become.It's a miserable place to be. It's much like a baby in the womb; you have to wait it out and stay where you are.I hope every day will bring the end; I know God is almost done working.I rejoice because the end is near,but still the pain increases.It's become too easy to not be anything, just a cocoon. I want to give up, but You won't let me.I'm not the caterpillar I used to be and I'm not the butterfly I know I am becoming.Becoming a butterfly is scary, painful and exhausting.I guess I don't want to remain a nothing, so I'll endure the torturous path out of this cocoon.And I know, someday, I'll fly!

Years ago, we lived in a house with dozens of trees around it. In the fall, the trees were covered with cocoons. We would walk by them all the time without taking much notice of them. A miracle was taking place before us and we paid little attention to it.
But in the fall, our trees were covered with hundreds of beautiful butterflies. Our children would run through the trees and the butterflies would all take flight. It was a glorious sight to see hundreds of butterflies fill the air, sunlight reflecting off their wings.
Caterpillars are ugly little things, but butterflies are gorgeous. God loves to make something beautiful out of something ugly. God loves to take the ugly things of our past that satan meant for our destruction, and turn them into a powerful weapon He can use for our construction.
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28
Death Gives Birth to Life
God takes you through "ugly" situations only to turn you into something beautiful. The Cross looked like the end of a dream to the disciples. They expected their Messiah to come, overthrow the Romans, and establish His Kingdom on this earth. The death of Jesus looked like the end of all their dreams.
Christ tried to warn the disciples of His impending death, but when He spoke of dying, Peter declared, "This shall never happen to You!" (Matthew 16:22). Christ knew that this must happen. Like a seed planted in the ground must cease to be a seed in order to become a plant, He knew that His life on earth, as it had been, must end or He could not bring forth the gift of eternal life for those who would believe in Him.
"In a little while you will see Me no more, and then after a little while you will see Me, because I am going to the Father." John 16:17
His death gave birth to life! "Jesus said to her, 'I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me will live, even though he dies'" (John 11:25).
The "cocoon" that you are in right now is the "death" that will give birth to your destiny. The painful situation you are enduring right now could be the launching pad for your future.
If you feel as though you are invisible, rejoice that you are. God has hidden you away to change you in secret, but soon He will pull you out like a secret weapon and show you off to the world.
"Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in Heaven." Matthew 5:16
Your Heavenly Father will declare, "Look at what My grace has done!" The world will praise Him because they can see what He has done in you. You are His trophy! His reward!
Some may argue then, that you have no right to be where God has placed you. But the voice of your accusers will not even reach your ears, because you have paid the price; you have endured and you have overcome.
And "You will soar on wings like eagles" (Isaiah 40:31), and yes, you will fly!
This Could Be the Day
When the expected due date for each of my children neared, I would awaken each day with the expectancy that today could be the day that I would deliver this child. Each day I would think, "Today could be the day." I never thought to myself that it just could not happen today, because I knew my time was coming and that this day could be the day that I would give birth.
As each day ended without seeing the birth of my baby, I would feel somewhat disappointed. But once again, another morning would come and I would arise with hope from Heaven, remembering that this day could be the day. And I was prepared to go at any time; I had my bags packed and gas in the car.
Each day that you serve God and wait on His timing for your destiny's fulfillment is one day closer to its birth. As you near your time of delivery, you feel in your spirit that the time is near. Perhaps today is the day! You look around and see your Christian brothers and sisters receiving the promises of God in their lives - you are happy for them.
But when is it your turn? When will your destiny come forth in the way God promised it would? Each day we must prepare our hearts to believe that, "this could be the day He fulfills His promises to me," and then suddenly He does.
The longer you serve God, the deeper you will trust Him to bring the promise to pass for you. As you near the time of receiving the fulfillment of His call on your life, you can know that every day will bring you one day closer. Today could be the day you receive a great blessing from God. Today could hold the answer you have been waiting for.
Wait in faith through each day as a woman waiting to give birth. God does not bring you to the time of birth just to stop the whole process. He did not bring you this far to leave you now. He will not forget you! It will happen! And remember that "He who began a good work in you will be faithful to complete it" (Philippians 1:6).
"God is not a man, that He should lie, or a son of man, that He should change His mind. Does He speak and then not act?" Numbers 23:19
If He's promised it, He will do it!
Say this with me: God will do what He has promised. He has not forgotten me, for I am constantly in His thoughts. God is waiting to fulfill His Word through me. It will happen! This could be the day! God cannot lie; He will not change His mind. I choose to believe what God has told me and not the lies of fear and doubt.
He has you hidden for a purpose - you are His secret weapon!

Victoria Boyson

Speaking Life Ministries

The winter terms starts ...

Tomorrow will be the official winter sememster start of the uni in Zurich. So I needed to gear up well and be fit to receive new students visiting my 2 canteens. There has been an increase of new students for the winter intake. Right now the exsisting students has been around 14'ooo and now with the added new students, it will be around 18'000 spreaded all around the campus.

The weather in Zurich is getting colder, this morning it rained and we had around 9 degrees. Much too cold for the autumm, and apparently it has been snowing in some parts of the rural mountainous areas last weekend. I had an off day today and enjoyed my workout at the gym and then took a long warm sauna. Sauna really great especially when it is cold outside. It gives me such a fuzzy warm feeling inside. To at least make the body fit for the winter.

For those of you who do not know what sauna is, it is a room heated up with dry heat of around 89 degrees, there your body will sweat out all toxins and really cleans every pores. detoxifying process alongside the lungs, kidneys, bowels, liver and the lymphatic and immune systems. The skin produces cool sweat to regulate the body's elevated temperature. Sweat carries toxins out of the body and flushes them through the pores. After a few minutes depending on how long you can stand it, you come out and get a very cold shower or dip into a cold water tub to cool off. Your whole body will be all red and rosy from the blood gush and circulation. After this torture, you can now just wrap yourself really warm and then lie down in a dim room and just cool down your body with a cup of herbal tea and soothing music. You can repeat this ritual as much as you want to.

It makes you flu resistant. i guess one can only do it in Europe and not in Asia. At times in KL it is already a sauna in itself.

New hobbies

I have been trying 2 new aerobics classes lately at my local gym and swimming pool. They are offering courses like Pilates, Fat burner, low compact, Aqua Fitness and many other aerobics which I had tried before in the past but am now updating myself with new forms of aerobics.



Well twice a week I join the local Aqua Fitness club as we go deep water jogging and aerobics on water. It sounds easy but it is rather hard, as you are floating on water and needed to do aerobic exercises on water. Need to do some practical stress management with working out.



AquaFit releases endorphins, the bodies feel good chemicals into the blood stream, giving you a boost which alleviates tension and improves your general state of mind.
Other recognised benefits of AquaFit are:
Body toning and shaping
Improved respiratory and circulation systems
Wider range of joint movement
Suppleness
Aids weight loss
Injury rehabilitation
Enhanced Fitness level






















The Pilates Method (or simply Pilates), Pilates pronounced /pɪˈlɑ:ti:z/ is a phyical fitness system developed in the early 20th century by Joseph Pilates in Germany.As of 2005 there are 11 million people who practice the discipline regularly and 14,000 instructors in the United States.



Pilates called his method Cology, because he believed his method uses the mind to control the muscles.The program focuses on the core postural muscles which help keep the body balanced and which are essential to providing support for the spine. In particular, Pilates exercises teach awareness of breath and alignment of the spine, and aim to strengthen the deep torso muscles.

Well.. I will try more classes and give you a brief insight into the world of well being. I was so sore after Pilates as the small group muscles were not activated for a long time. After the Pilates session, I felt so refreshed might also due to the deep breathing sessions we had. More oxygen in body, more circulation.

The peace after the battle

Hi all, this week has been such a blessing for me as I sense that afterall I wanted a good life and not really hot on fighting on a much too small rice bowl. Craving for acknowledgement and security. Oh... I have discern a bunch of spirit which call themselves "Self glorification" and intimidation.
Intimidation always comes in after insecurities, they ride on hand in hand with fear, low esteem and confusion. I went in to work on monday and did some more job interviews with job seekers, my supervisor wanted to be in the job interviews so I let him be a part of it (insecurities on his part) We interview for 2 vacancy, so please continue to pray for good and capable people to join in my team for this coming winter semester. When my supervisor walked in, he could not walk straight, apparently he has been bock down with severe back pain and could not stretch after the talk we had last week. ..... interesting.

Well as I was preparing for the interview, I sense such a deep burden and wanted to get rid of that feeling of being held on to more responsibilities. So I took the opportunitiy to inform him that I shall be giving up my position as the manager in the 3rd restaurant and will be withdrawing my responsibility and the licence to run the place as soon as possible. He was cool about and I commented that I see the need to concentrate on the bigger business and cannot cope and fulfill all the unvoice requirements and expectations from his side for the 3rd business. He then said yes and dash out of the restaurant like a speed, with his sore back. Wow !! the last time I saw him dash out like that when he was needed to take recognition from my director during our meeting.

After I voice out my withdrawal.. I walk out of the restaurant feeling so light, so free and so happy. I went to do my spa right after. Got a whole body massage and being pampered for nearly 2 hours. That felt so good, all my stiffness just melted away. Since that day I completely cut myself free from the 3rd restaurant and enjoy each free time I had after work. And guess what, on wednesday, talking about suddenlies. The uni architect came over and told me that he would like to approve my request in making more room for my present office. He is going to break down a wall and extend the office space !!! Extend my space oh Lord !!! What a confirmation !!! After my desicion... I suddenly had favor from all side, so since wednesday to friday, all sorts of construction and electrician and carpenter has been flowing in to make my office larger!!
They even will grant me new refrigerators as my present one has been spoilt so often. It was like christmas and I was grinning and having a large smile on my face.

The best thing is that... once I let go and know I do not need human recognition, God immediately rewards us. I was able to finish my work punctually and has been indulging myself with aqua fitness (deep water jogging with special vest), and could enjoy the late summer evenings !!! I finally have time for me!!

The 3rd restaurant has been going through a lot of problems with their personnel and administration. Items in the brand new place has been having performance problems. So.. that was God's protection over me. Even before the terms starts... things are breaking a part !!

Thanks for standing by me.

Too many cooks spoilt the food

This week has been very hectic for me. The new birth has proven to be a difficult birth. The restaurant was a great hit and an added service to the exsisting canteen and restaurant at the uni campus. We had a gradual increase of business each day as the first day of business started off on this Monday.

The saying, too many cooks spoilt the food is very appropriate for my situation at the new place. Too many supervisor, coordinator, advisors and bosses are involved in desicion making and at the end there were so much confusion and misunderstanding within the team. The actual person who is suppose to make desicion in the daily business is me, as i was appointed as the manager but instead every other person in some kind of position are fighting for power. They crave for attention, acknowlegement and wanted to have all the success for themselves. Such insecurities as each person wanted to secure their "rice bowls". I took the whole thing kind of cool and thought to my self ... what a priveledge to be call the child of the most high, as when God establish you and make a way for you. No enemy nor devil can ripp that off from you unless you allow access into your life.

It turn out the battle got out of hand, the bosses call for a crisis meeting and started to gossip and accuse me and my team for not functioning the way that they wanted it to work. I stood my ground, as I know they have no other stone to throw. It was so hard as I was falsely accused and added to that, I was expected much more then I can bargain for. There was no agreement on the added work that was pose on me during the meeting. Jezebel is lashing out big time, control and manupilation started to take roots and threats, hurtful remarks just flow out of their mouth. I kept my cool and deep inside I had seen their true colors and lost all respect for them and how they started to handle things when they want to find someone to blame.

Greediness is one of the symptoms of the spirit of control.

They were putting pressure on me to perform and to work out all the loose ends which they has cause within this few days. I put my foot down and has decided to withdraw myself out of this pressure. This friday, they notice that they needed me to run and organize and I knew that the bosses could not attack me as I am doing my job and has done it to give glory to God. They back off and now they are scheming to overthrow me to get someone else inside where they can easily manupilate and control as they wish to.

My Father in heaven has paid a very high price for me to walk free, and not yield to any controlling nor manupilating spirit. My prince of peace has given me such tremendous peace in the eye of the strom as I want to walk righteously before Him. No power can harm me, No spirit can disturb me.

Thanks for all those who has prayed for me and stood in the gap for me this week. Hugs

Know who you are in Christ, know that if our Father can open the way to maintain you as long as you are willing to walk on it, He will also clear the way if He needs to, if circumstances and people are hindering the way for you to reach what He has for you. He will remove them, even if it means taking drastic measure. I have been there and seen His goodness.