The peace after the battle

Hi all, this week has been such a blessing for me as I sense that afterall I wanted a good life and not really hot on fighting on a much too small rice bowl. Craving for acknowledgement and security. Oh... I have discern a bunch of spirit which call themselves "Self glorification" and intimidation.
Intimidation always comes in after insecurities, they ride on hand in hand with fear, low esteem and confusion. I went in to work on monday and did some more job interviews with job seekers, my supervisor wanted to be in the job interviews so I let him be a part of it (insecurities on his part) We interview for 2 vacancy, so please continue to pray for good and capable people to join in my team for this coming winter semester. When my supervisor walked in, he could not walk straight, apparently he has been bock down with severe back pain and could not stretch after the talk we had last week. ..... interesting.

Well as I was preparing for the interview, I sense such a deep burden and wanted to get rid of that feeling of being held on to more responsibilities. So I took the opportunitiy to inform him that I shall be giving up my position as the manager in the 3rd restaurant and will be withdrawing my responsibility and the licence to run the place as soon as possible. He was cool about and I commented that I see the need to concentrate on the bigger business and cannot cope and fulfill all the unvoice requirements and expectations from his side for the 3rd business. He then said yes and dash out of the restaurant like a speed, with his sore back. Wow !! the last time I saw him dash out like that when he was needed to take recognition from my director during our meeting.

After I voice out my withdrawal.. I walk out of the restaurant feeling so light, so free and so happy. I went to do my spa right after. Got a whole body massage and being pampered for nearly 2 hours. That felt so good, all my stiffness just melted away. Since that day I completely cut myself free from the 3rd restaurant and enjoy each free time I had after work. And guess what, on wednesday, talking about suddenlies. The uni architect came over and told me that he would like to approve my request in making more room for my present office. He is going to break down a wall and extend the office space !!! Extend my space oh Lord !!! What a confirmation !!! After my desicion... I suddenly had favor from all side, so since wednesday to friday, all sorts of construction and electrician and carpenter has been flowing in to make my office larger!!
They even will grant me new refrigerators as my present one has been spoilt so often. It was like christmas and I was grinning and having a large smile on my face.

The best thing is that... once I let go and know I do not need human recognition, God immediately rewards us. I was able to finish my work punctually and has been indulging myself with aqua fitness (deep water jogging with special vest), and could enjoy the late summer evenings !!! I finally have time for me!!

The 3rd restaurant has been going through a lot of problems with their personnel and administration. Items in the brand new place has been having performance problems. So.. that was God's protection over me. Even before the terms starts... things are breaking a part !!

Thanks for standing by me.